help...

a.a. and i chatted yesterday, brief one. she said sometimes ada rasa nak quit. she is now on the journey as well with nottingham u. me too ada rasa nak quit!! so far there have been two instances where i told myself "quit la". but am still here and sometimes i can see speck of light then it vanishes. the hardest part about all this at this point in time is the pushing of myself. not to blame anyone or anything, but an institution taking research grad students should (borderline must) prepare a more conducive area of study, not just cubicle please! but again this is just me trying to point fingers and that i do rationalize on things happening around me that deters me from working. so me have to change, and quick!

As the Beatles put it....

Help, I need somebody,
Help, not just anybody,
Help, you know I need someone,
Help!

When I was younger,
so much younger than today,
I never needed anybody's help in anyway.B
ut now these days are gone,
I'm not so self assured,
Now I find I've changed my mind,
I've opened up the doors.

Help me if you can,
I'm feeling down
And I do appreciate you being 'round.
Help me get my feet back on the ground,
Won't you please, please help me?

And now my life has changed in oh so many ways,
My independence seems to vanish in the haze.
But every now and then I feel so insecure,
I know that I just need you like, I've never done before.

Help me if you can, I'm feeling down
And I do appreciate you being 'round.
Help me get my feet back on the ground,
Won't you please, please help me?

When I was younger, so much younger than today,
I never needed anybody's help in anyway.
But now these days are gone,
I'm not so self assured,
Now I find I've changed my mind,
I've opened up the doors.
Help me if you can, I'm feeling down
And i do appreciate you being 'round.
Help me get my feet back on the ground,
Won't you please, please help me?
Help me,Help me